For the last couple of weeks I have pondered if I should start blogging again. Blogging is a touchy subject for me. In a way it helps me, but at the same time I struggle with it because I feel it puts a lot of pressure on me.
So for the past few weeks, I had this little war going on in my mind: Yes, you should blog again. No, don't do it. Yes, you should definitely start again. No way, big mistake.... You get the idea.
Fast forward to today. We went to Ann Arbor in honor of Joana's birthday. We walked through a most beautiful park and stopped at a perfect rock skipping place by the river. It wasn't right by the path, you had to actually climb down an incline to get to the river. There were small rocks, big rocks, medium rocks....and one old tree stump. That old tree stump had a hole in it, and in that hole, there was a beautiful yellow flower. That little flower hadn't grown there, someone had taken that flower from somewhere else and stuck it in the tree stump as if it were a vase. There were absolutely no yellow flowers anywhere around, and it looked like that flower had come from a purchased bouquet.
I was flabbergasted, and I still am. As you know, the title of this blog is "Chasing Yellow Flowers", and here was a yellow flower where it definitely didn't belong...
A sign? A coincidence? A not-so-subtle kick in the butt?
Whatever it was, it convinced me to start blogging again! I'm not sure which direction this blog is going to take, but I know it will be a combination of journaling about my road to becoming healthier and losing weight as well as different aspects of dealing with loss (not weight loss, but loss of a loved one).
I hope you will join me on this journey, and also hold me accountable. But more about this in the next couple of days...
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(P.S. I was VERY tempted to delete my old entries and start fresh (especially because they are evidence for the fact that I have not followed through with losing weight in the past), but then I decided to leave them. My failures are a part of me as much as my successes...so they are here to stay!)
